No, Not What's Next?

Dear Son,

You still have a way of comforting me even though you're not here with me now. As I sat tonight and reflected over the last couple of weeks, I "saw" you and "heard" you saying, "Mom, it's going to be okay." And you are right, everything is going to be okay.

First one a.c. unit, then the next, then a hot water heater, then a Jeep, the tragedy occuring with some family members and now the work truck......I could say, "What's next?".....But I won't. As your sister gently reminded me today, God never gives us more than we can handle. Sometimes I think that God has a lot more confidence in me than I do in myself. But with all He allows in our lives, He also gives us the grace to sustain us through the hard times.

As hard as things have been, I am grateful for so many more things. Looking at the bigger picture, I have so much more than most people and I am truly grateful for that.

Thank you once again for setting your mother straight!!

I love you my precious son,

Mom

Splish Splash

Dear Chris,

I know memories aren't the same as having you here with me but they can brighten up what sometimes is a dreary day.

The last couple of days, as I watched your nephews splashing around in the bathtub, a lot of pleasant memories flooded my mind. I found myself laughing and actually feeling good inside. You know where I'm going with these thoughts. There is one specific incident that came to my mind - the tape we have of you and Heather in the tub shortly after we moved here. I'm going to find that tape this week and play it. I think little Christopher will get a kick out of it.

It saddens me that your nephews will never know you personally. Sometimes I can picture you rolling on the floor with them and acting goofy. You would've loved them and they would've adored you. All I can give them are the memories I have but I know one day they will get to meet their Uncle Chris and be with him for eternity.

I'm missing you son - so very much!

Love Always,

Mom