Self Pity

Dear Chris,

Yesterday, my devotion was on self pity; I haven't been able to stop thinking about it since then. "Self pity is a slimy, bottomless pit. Once you fall in, you tend to go deeper and deeper into the mire. As you slide down those slippery walls, you are well on your way to depression, and the darkness is profound."

The answer, of course, is to look up and see the light of His presence. It seems so simple when you read it; following it is another thing.

There have been so many times in my life when God used you, or your sister, or your brother to lift me out of that pit. I'm sure in many instances none of you realized what you were doing for me. I've come a long way but I still find myself starting to slip into that pit sometimes. I fight hard....I have to......I don't want to fall all the way down.

How much I wish I could speak these words to you and hear your reassuring, "Everything will be okay, Mom".

Miss you so much.

Love,

Mom