A Mother's Love

Dear Chris,

Today I received an email.....one with a video that I have seen before....and it made me bawl like a baby again. So often people tell me how they admire my strength, my courage......and then I look at this video and I feel so small compared to this wonderful mother. I cannot even begin to imagine what she was feeling. I know what it means to lose a child and I know all the heartbeak associated with that...........but I never had to watch you suffer and die.

Remember when we all watched "The Passion of Christ". The next day you and I talked about it and I remember telling you how throughout the whole movie I was focused on Mary....watching her on the sidelines, following her son and knowing that she couldn't do anything to help Him. But she knew He had to suffer and die and she knew it was all God's will. And somehow, someway, I've come to accept the fact that it was God's will for you to leave us so soon. I don't understand the why's right now but I do know His way is perfect.

You're always in my thoughts sweet son and the memories of your smile bring smiles to my face and wash away the tears that appear each and every day.

I love you and miss you so much,

Mom